Happy but Worried Girl

When you are in love you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams.

~Dr. Seuss

Today is a momentous day for me. Six months ago I made contact with the one person in the world who turned my view on life and love around. Happy Anniversary Love!

I apologize for not keeping up with the blog. Season hit and after running around at work coming home and thinking of posts has become difficult. Correction, sitting down and putting it down on the keyboard is difficult. I swear I have had about thirty post topics flit through my mind only to escape to the recesses of subconscious when I get my motivation up enough to do something about it.

I watched a documentary about Heavy Metal recently and in it Dee Snyder of Twisted Sister was telling a story about how one day he was sitting by the pool trying to write the next "We're Not Going to Take It" and found that he couldn't do it. His life had turned around with all the success that writing about rebellion and scrapping by was really hard. I understood the concept when I watched it, but now I can relate. I have lost focus of where Broken Girl was supposed to go. I plan to return on track and continue the stories that I started to tell. I apologize for my procrastination.

I must pose this question because of something happening with one of my friends has me puzzled. Is it possible to fall headlong in a long-distance relationship with someone? If you are not near the person, can you have a true romance and be angry or surprised if it fails? And if you are in such, or trying to maintain such, a relationship: How much contact is acceptable? I know there are times in close distant relationships where it seemed like I was in almost constant contact/checking in status with the other person, I don't even know where you begin to decide such lines in a cross-country affair...


Gwei Mui July 12, 2010 at 7:09 AM  

I always take the view that there is an underlying reason why one stops doing things - whether that's a change in one's feelings, loosing enthusiasm for writing, singing or whatever. Like loosing your appetite it is your mind, body and if you prefer your soul's way of telling you something is not right. As long as we listen to these warnings and act on them all should eventually be well.

Long distance relationships I wouldn't know where to begin. I admire people who can even contemplate such a commitment. Having a normal distance relationship is an on going commitment that has it's own challenges. I've been married for over seventeen years, very happily but it takes both of us to maintain the relationship. There have been times when our work has taken us away from each other sometimes for months. It is hard and not actually to be in physical contact is not easy. So I personally don't know how people manage a relationship at arms length. But that's me personally.

Andrea Leigh July 12, 2010 at 8:01 PM  

I agree with you Gwei. It is one thing to be in a steady relationship with someone then have to leave them or they leave for some reason or other be it school or work. It is another if the entire relationship begins at a distance.

It takes awhile before I'm willing to commit to the word love or being in a relationship and somehow not being able to guage a person up close and personal rubs me the wrong way.

I don't want to be condescending to my friend, but she needs to stop these internet/long-distance relations before it hurts her too much. Falling in and out of love so quickly has to leave scars.

Wilmaryad July 17, 2010 at 8:03 AM  

Hey, And-engaged-rea. ,-)

What Dr. Seuss said is so cute and true! Sleep is as overrated when you daydream. Noticed the pun?


I was in sort of an e-relationship, which suddenly ended a year ago, in 2 weeks from now. He wanted to video/audio chat on Skype, every night, until unwise hours of the morning, despite both of us working the day after. I, at some point, fell sick and lost my voice. He got mad and things went downhill from there, until he met somebody at a conference, and in a weekend, fell madly in love and broke up with me.

Here, if you have some time, read about it on this link:



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